Educational Autobiography

The biggest dream in my entire life and career profile had been to travel abroad, professionally, and learn the things from a global perspective. Like my father, who recently took the privilege to retire from his long dedicated work towards the banking industry, I too had a dream of pursuing higher education and getting a stable secure future for myself, so as to supplement me as well as my little family of my loving parents and a pet dog named Joey.
In my childhood, I always had this habit of peeking far off in the skies, looking at the stars and the sun and moon, and gazing through the special spectacles to have a sneak peek at the lunar or solar eclipse. As the time flied, I grew older, carried on with my studies, and further schooling and the advancements towards the world of science and fiction watching the high-tech movies and having the curiosity of learning more about this area of space exploration. With the age advancements and the changes in my studies, I dreamt of making it big, just like the first Indian female who had the pleasure of flying around the space, Kalpana Chawla, I too wanted to study astronomy. So while I was in the senior secondary classes in 2003 and 2004, I made up my mind to pursue engineering, study hard and get into a good university, which deals with the related kind of educational facilities for venturing out my fields of interest and getting to learn more.
I always liked solving the numeral subject of mathematics and science branches dealing with chemistry and physics. I searched and studied from all the basic books I had got throughout the course, quenching my thirst to learn more about the space and universe. My curiosity went more and more immense with loads of hard work that I had to put in, in order to clear the entrances for the engineering entrances for various university and colleges.
In my first attempt for the prestigious IIT’s (Indian Institute of Technology), which is one of the hardest and yet toughest exams to be cleared among the best engineering colleges in our country, I stood nowhere, since this competition exam needed to be prepared with utmost dedication and proper focus, which I somehow realized later, never had much, like I have it now.
So standing unclear at a few entrances like IIT, DCE, AIEEE, having no exam clearance I finally realized, I was not that strong academically, neither I had such a bright sound mind with the scientific temperament.  I negotiated with life, got a seat at the Delhi University, to pursue , a bachelors in sciences, general course, in the regular college at south campus, named, ARSD(Atma Ram Sanatan Dharm), near to dhuala kuan. I attended the college and didn’t really liked it much, still having the same aim of pursuing an engineering degree. So after a short while, in 2005, after attending 2 months of college, I nearly dropped out, with the aim to clearing an entrance exam for engineering.
After that day, I made up my mind to never look back and moved on, taking coaching and test series package from a private coaching institute named, Narayana, at kalu sarai-New Delhi, just near to IIT, I carried on with the preparation, clearing away my first entrance exam of AIEEE (All India engineering entrance exam), and got a college at a nearby university college named, Apeejay College of Engineering, situated somewhere around 40 kms away from my home.
I finally pursued my long cherished dream of studying engineering course, with the branch allotted to me as electronics and instrumentation in the first counselling, while I updated it, getting a better branch of electronics and communication. It took me 4 years, 8 semesters, nearly taking 40 theory exams and number of practical and various seminars, project work and training modules, to finally earn this degree of, B.E. (ECE), from MDU, Maharishi Dayanand University.
After graduation, with a course from 2006-2010, I had no job in my hand, since the campus placements where I stood unclear with the written tests, I couldn’t proceed further for the next few rounds of group discussions and panel interviews. Some of the companies which I missed out were iGATE, Patni, Impetus, and Infosys, until I realized a very harsh truth about myself that I lacked in the analytical problem solving skills while taking up the exams, getting to know the areas of weaknesses. I did not have such a good mathematical thinking when it came to the aptitude and the logical reasoning sections of the exams. So I tried hard, putting in more hours to the concerned subjects and sections in order to get the required skills to crack the tests and get a good job in a well set company of my core area, related to electronics and communication.
In the year 2010, I studied for many areas in order to get a job in the government banking industry or the Indian Engineering Services, the various organizations like Airport Authority of India (AAI), HPCL (Hindustan Petroleum Corporation limited), DMRC (Delhi Metro rail corporation limited), etc…
All these entrance exams had to be dealt with the written tests and seeing the stiff competition I was highly demoralized, and had a setback. All my dreams were taking a big time set back, since I didn’t possess what it took to clear an entrance exam.
Even though after working for various companies and getting paid, I didn’t ever haD that good feeling of happiness, contentment or satisfaction from the beginning till the very end. I always sulked and criticized myself for getting no justice to the field of education I had pursued.
With the passage of time, dealing with a lot of stress and sad unemployment stage of my life, my father, had been asking me to do this course for getting government job assurance. I was pretty adamant to change my decision of changing my path of career. He told me about bachelors in education course, but I was fussy since, there were hardly any people who would do a B.Ed. course after B.E. Gradually and slowly, so many years passed by and I realized, of my biggest mistake of life, being going for a silly entrance exam preparation dropping away from a college seat at Delhi University.
Last year finally made up my mind and had this clear decision of going in for this course and lifestyle of a good teacher, since I myself wanted to get the prestigious qualities of self-respect, self-confidence, discipline, positive and optimistic attitude towards my life. I wanted to train myself with all these, since I wanted to help myself, attain a good and healthy sound mind, helping the parents and my locality around and be a good citizen of my well known nation, being famous for the immense socio-cultural variations and the unity in diversity. I had this urge of doing something for my own country.
Followed with time, I without wasting any further energy applied at GGSIP (Guru Gobind Singh Indra-Prastha-University, for the course of Bachelors in Education, which is a two year regular full-time college degree program. I cleared the entrance without any much hard work and got a really good rank unexpectedly, standing at 1310 position. So I actively engaged myself with the online counseling process of the university and got a college in the first round itself.
Getting started with the course at FIMT (Fairfield Institute of Management and Technology), I kicked started, my life yet again in my surge to start from scratch and learn and build myself wholly in order to attain all the desired dreams and expectations I had and will have in my life now. Enrolled here at FIMT, with some of the best teachers and helpful staff members, I still learn and carry on with the process of evolving the teaching-learning procedure.

School & self-learning

My secret love “Muzik”

makes me smile , in the silence 

makes me cry, with those violins

touches my heart with the guitars

can’t see him as he’s so far.

takes away my pains & heels my sorrows

relaxes my senses and makes a better tomorrow.

turns me on with his rhythm & blues,

tries to touch my soul with the spiritual views.

makes me burn on the dance floor,

makes me lose control with the loud roar,

breaks my head and bang it hard,

when the rock ‘n’ roll and metal goes apart

and the hip-hop beats to shake and spin around

with the drum beats driving wicked and surround.

takes my breath away with the good old classics,

which makes the air goes so romantic

and the base goes running along

across the southern rock with the country so longed.

and the jazz and reggae comes in action

with the sweetness and sun tans goes in attraction.

he has taught me so much about life

that i know i can make myself no more strive.

i can feel him in my ears,

he can’t with all those gears.

i can’t see him anywhere,

even though he catches me everywhere.

He is immortal and never bids goodbye,

but i sometimes have to fall short and go so shy.

he’s always with me, my lips, my nerves n my senses

but my eyes keeps searching for him in those shells.

when he’s all packed in boxes so heavy

and cluttered in the wires so thin and wavy

i can’t see him ever cause the man i am talking about in this whole story

is “Muzik” ..

I wrote this little piece way back in my graduation days..once when i used to be much of a active-music-lover/follower. I developed much of the taste from my radio addiction..offline that days, while now we all have loads of apps and online technologies to hear the fresh and record breaking artists from national, international or even regional artists. So as i was telling you all about my love for this area, which somehow have taken a backstage lately, since i m cut short on my leisure fun time to more of a serious studious kinds. I slowly and gradually realized to myself when i fist start going to the college once again last year, life has kind of turned topsy-turvy, and been turned upside down from dull n boring to interesting yet roller-coaster kind of a ride for me.

Being from a technical background, i hardly had any plans to continue much on the academics and studies, until i realized that i was deeply saddened and much of a failure in my real life, as a responsible human-being, female, daughter, sister, friend and the list just goes on. What i never understood was a bitter fact of life that, the journey never stops unless your mind stops talking and your heart beats come to a nil on that graph and your body had stopped working and died from inside out. I realized a fact, that i had been trying much too hard to achieve something which was kind of really hard to achieve in this life-time, failing to finally succeed in any of my attempts on any of the competitive exams and getting somewhere good making a stable career for myself.

So finally last year i made up my mind to give this last dive in to the mess of examinations, applying for a Bachelors in Education course at a well reputed university of our national capital. The only course entrance exam form i had applied, a solo one, and had this misinformation, i.e; only 200 seats for the course, which happened to be applied for another university. I tried for a few more universities, with the leading ones, but failed to go ahead due to some issues. So 10th may-2015, we had our common entrance test, with my center somewhere in the south location. The results were out on 19th, and i somehow tried avoiding to check instead having a misconception for the seat/student ratio for the concerned university. I remember very clearly i was sad on life not turning out even close to what i had planned for. I didn’t check it on 19th and went online a day later, seeing the best to my eye had ever believed. I stood at a rank 1310, to which at first, i jumped out of my seat in a feeling of joy and fiesta, but again, held myself back due to the wrong info, checking that list where the ranks had gone as high as somewhere 7200s. I was not just happy for the rank i had got, but only to the fact, that i stood at a good position somewhere, without so much of hard-work that i had put in for cracking my AIEEE, and other entrances. Perhaps, that’s what we call “destiny“, and now i absolutely believe and have utmost faith in this word.

Since i stepped to this new platform of my life embracing all the good things of life and the simple pleasure of being happy with small steps of climbing a mountain and a never ending journey of give and take, known as the world of Teaching and learning,  the world of Education, it gives me immense pride and tonnes of good-feelings, hope, wisdom and optimistic attitude to face life with great confidence and a path of self-discovery. I am a student of B.Ed.(2015-2017), FIMT, Guru Gobind Singh Indraprastha University, Delhi.

The poem above was a presentation i was suppose to give individually for my practical subject assignment. And below is a picture of some of my new friends/classmates/teachers/guide and counselors.

Diwali Mela @FIMT with Bhawna mam,Sarika mam, Rekha mam, Ridhi mam, and clockwise-Prachi, Ritika, Kanchan, Priya, Archana, Shireen, Anuradha at back, Ranjana, Abhilasha, Vandana and u know me. 🙂

Acknowledging my experiences!

As i continue writing about my story as a writer, who isn’t established anywhere, except in my own little devilish grave top-shelf, i would like to present a few of my poems here in sometime. My first poem as i had already told you, was written over a trivial issue, somehow close to my heart and mind, which i came down by my secret weapon of choice, known as the “pen to paper”. Although a bit sad and melancholic it was when i was scratching my head with all the worldly issues going around those times and still somehow prevails in all of our lives. And so i started up with a few short ones and some full fledged heart touching ones. Since i was much into the movies they used to show on our television sets, i was a sci-fi and space movie fanatic.


So turning back to this present moment, when i am back to the college days, being enrolled in a course related to the education industry, somehow feeling this strong urge to bring about some much needed enlightenment across the kids and the youth in this era, and making some change in our country. With my first year nearing to its end in the month of May-June, i have learned so much about life and myself as a whole till now.

In the first semester we learned quite a few techniques and methodologies about the various subjects under the teaching-learning process. I being an engineering graduate, found psychology a bit tricky to learn and understand until i just made myself comfortable, sitting back and studied with full focus for getting to know the various things and images we get to make while taking a good look over a lesson. The psyche a person plays a vital role in understanding an individual, which totally defines him/her on the outer as their personality or the body language, the way they present themselves, either verbally or non-verbally(eye movements, sign-language, etc). Then the other subject we learned was very much related to a person’s life on how it gives and presents on their various attributes such as the physical, mental, moral, character, social, emotional, intellectual, etc..helping an individual in their individual development, giving them a perspective-philosophy. the other important subjects of learning were those from the fields of school organization, discipline, language and understanding of one’s strengths and weaknesses.

The best part being one of the learners here, at college under the school of education after a long gap of around 5 years was getting back to the youth, the era where i loved being the most. As a student in one of the top universities among the national capital, i liked the people, my fellow classmates, the new environment, some great teachers and professors from various backgrounds and walks of life. I rose back from my bad days just in time and made myself comfortable, getting into the flow. I was slowly and gradually making pace and speeding up for getting updated on my areas of expertise and the knowledge of-course.


So, while being there, during the first semester we had a few subjects in which we dealt with writing plethora of texts and journals, reviews, autobiography, all enclosed under an e-portfolio. This digital copy i somehow enjoyed the most since it made me awaken and get all fast track knowledge and database under the computer literacy skills. I learned how to google search and make meaning of the data, made use of google drive, saving all my home-assignments and work in a well organized fashion. Mostly, i had this great opportunity to learn and get my hands on the right part of texting by Microsoft office, with the presentation(making a electronic means of lesson plan for the smart classes), the Microsoft word(where i typed most of my journals and the reports of our school work), and somehow also learnt to experiment with all of my work or writing skills in order to make the best possible presentation. Coming next would be a few of my poems which i wrote in the college days on the occasion of teachers day, and also a few of my old ones.